Dreams....

Genesis 37: 5-20 is what sticks in my head since church service on Sunday. I was just thinking the same thing in my mind about sharing dreams. Not everyone has my best interest in hand and on purpose many will try to sabotage what I want to achieve in life.
The only thing is others weren't the only ones I was afraid of, I was afraid of ME. As funny as it seems I was afraid that I could succeed and afraid of where my wealth of knowledge and ability could take me in life. I kept telling myself that I wanted to advance within my career, yet kept holding myself back scared not of rejection but of receiving. I am so quick to tell others to go for their dreams and supply that system of support that they need to move up but have yet to follow my own advice. I am a strong believer that God will only move us when he sees fit, and I feel that he was giving me that budge to start warming up to move as I sat in church on Sunday.
I came across a great opportunity recently to advance my career and thought about all the great things that would come from it, but at the same time froze in my dreams and had sleepless nights thinking of all that could go wrong instead of right.
I know we all judge ourselves harder than others but I have to keep reminding myself that how can I expect to win if I never try. With that being said, I'm holding on to God's hand and chasing that dream. Along the path to the finish line I have seem to have formed a chain of friendship along the way, they have grabbed onto my hand and have chosen to not let go no matter how shaky things get. You know who you are, your kind encouraging words, your constructive criticism and providing me with ways to make myself better to "sell" myself so I can cash in on my dreams has not gone unnoticed.
God will see me through and allow the others who want my dream deferred like Joseph's brothers to sit in the background, little do they know my blessing may end up being a blessing for them as well in the end.